Internal Busyness is a stress addicted feeling of having too much to do in too little time available. A self-inflicted condition is not the same as having a busy day or many competing demands.
External busyness can be managed, organized and delegated - Internal busyness manages YOU.
Internal busyness is when you don’t have an immediate task at hand and would have a moment to sit and breathe but instead you find yourself spinning internally wondering what you’ve forgotten to do?
Some people are addicted to the multitasking high. An activity addiction. You keep adding on activities to achieve the initial sense of achievement. Going to more parties, conferences, signing up your children to more afterschool activities, joining more volunteer committees, etc… soon you’re emailing while talking on the phone and helping your child with homework while dinner’s on the stove….
Being busy nourishes the ego’s need to feel important. In our culture being busy equals being productive and important. While it’s healthy to be engaged in the world it’s not that healthy to suddenly feel empty, left out, non-existent when we finally decide to take a break from it all. When you take the time to take a break and realize the importance depth of being present in all you do it might be time to cut down on some non-essential activities and give time to focus on the fundamentals in your life.
Make space in your day for micropractices of being in the Now.
Stop several times a day to center yourself through some form of inner focus. i.e. :
Anti-rushing practice: When you’re in a hurry, STOP, stand or sit totally sit for one full minute. Say to yourself “I have all the time in the world”. See yourself from the outside sitting in a meditation posture, with a slight smile and total sense of peace glowing on your face .Breathe deeply and slowly five times and keep that image as you continue your way.
The one who is not busy, lives in the space between every breath, between each thought. In the space between the end of one action and the beginning of the next. We can merge into the source of all actions. The still point between the turning worlds.
Excerpts from Sally Kempton (meditation and yoga philosophy teacher)
Be present as the watcher of your mind -- of your thoughts and emotions as well as your reactions in various situations. Be at least as interested in your reactions as in the situation or person that causes you to react. Notice also how often your attention is in the past or future. Don't judge or analyze what you observe. Watch the thought, feel the emotion, observe the reaction. Don't make a personal problem out of them. You will then feel something more powerful than any of those things that you observe: the still, observing presence itself behind the content of your mind, the silent watcher.
Wherever you are, be there totally. If you find your here and now intolerable and it makes you unhappy, you have three options: remove yourself from the situation, change it, or accept it totally.